Just Wondering... If I were to die tomorrow... what would you have said to me and would you think of me fondly (meaning what memory of me would you go back to when you do) ?
NO! I'M NOT THINKING OF SUICIDE! But I saw this movie today and it got me thinking...
sooo... please humor me...
Current Mood: curious Current Music:The Music In My Soul
Random Post Since I haven't posted for a while, I figured I should return to LJ and say a few words...
I was thinking about english class today (mostly because I have to start writing those journal entries). The main topic of the class is "love and realtionships." It's a pretty interesting class, however no one ever knows what to say when we are dicussing "love" in depth. I think most of the people in the class really don't truly understand what love is. Everyone always associates love with good feelings. I, myself, never thought of love as just good feelings, being that I see a lot of relationships fail due to that reasoning. People need to open their eyes and see what love really is and accept the fact that it's not always perfect.
I came across a book I read a long time ago that was all about what love is, how one discusses it, and how one knows when love is present in their lives.
I found this list to be very eye-opening, if you care to read it:
IN DISCUSSING LOVE, IT WOULD BE WELL TO CONSIDER THE FOLLOWING PREMISES: 1)one cannot give what one does not possess, to give love one must possess love 2)one cannot teach what one does not understand, to teach love one must comprehend love. 3)one canont know what one does not study, to study love one must live in love. 4)one cannot appreciate what one does not recognize, to recognize love one must be receptive to love. 5)one cannot doubt what one wishes to trust, to trust love one must be convinced of love 6)one cannot admit what one does not yield to, to yield to love you must be vunerable to love. 7)one cannot live what one does not dedicate oneself to, to dedicate oneself to love you must be forever growing in love
Current Mood: contemplative Current Music:the music in my head
I had the perfect view of Kyo from where I was standing. I got to see him take the blood from his mouth and wipe in all over is fine chest and scratch his sexy ads! GOD, IT WAS JOYASMICLY DELICIOUS!
The good bad part was that I got separated from Paola, Katie, Kier, and Natalie (new friend I made through my myspace friend). I did have Bee (my myspace friend) for a a while, but then I lost her. We all reunited after though...
All in all I had a blast and I'm sooooo glad I got to finally see a band that I have loved for 5-6 years!
~*DREAMS DO COME TRUE*~
Current Mood: ecstatic Current Music:*All Diru All The Time*
I wonder sometimes... ... it everything I'm doing in my life will lead me down the road to my own success...
I don't need to extremely wealth... I just want to be financial stable. I want to have money to live on and provide for my family. while still having some spending money to spurge on myself every now and then.
I wish I knew what I wanted to do with my life. I know I still have some time to contemplate what my life's work will be. Please, I want to be hit with a revelation now!!! *waits for a while*
Oh DARN IT... it'll hit me... eventually...
Current Mood: yet wide awake Current Music:Teen Heart Remix >>>> P!ATD
Where did everything go wrong? An epsiode of the worst kind happened last night... I do not feel like reliving the entire incident again... But I feel that if I do not vent of my frustations, I'm going to combust...
My cousin as told me many things in her own language... Body-wise and metaphorically... basically telling me that I don't have a place in the house we both grew up in because I live upstairs and she lives downstairs... She has told me that in her universe, I am an outsider stepping in... This is what our relationship has amounted to after years of growing up together... Nothing but bitterness and hatred...
All this vacation, she has be acting like an entirely different person from who I have known for years. She doesn't seem to care about anyone, besides the sisters in her Sigma Lamda Opsiolan family... she is moody, violent, aggressive, disrepectful, and inconceivable agrumentative... and she is always sickly...
I just don't understand these changes... aren't you suppose improved as you become older and wiser? Aren't you suppose to appreciate your family when you have been away from for months? And aren't you suppose to show your family that you still love them and care about them?
The way my cousin is right now, I hate her... you may think that "hate" is a rather harsh word... and I never thought that I would ever come to say that about someone so close to me... but there is no better word to describe my digust... I just hate her. I hate what she has become and hate the fact that she is totally unaware of these changes...
... yet I still cared about her when she walked out at 3 o' clock in the morning after her huge temper tanrtum... ... I still care after she basically told me I don't live in her world...
I just don't want to care...
I'm so conflicted...
Current Mood: distressed Current Music:Cruify Sorrow By The Gazette
Monday, January 1st, 2007
January 1st|1.16am
~*Koi Kaze*~ Random thought that has been running through my head lately...
"What does it really mean to truly love someone?"
All around me, people have been talking about how much they truly love the significant others. They know all their significant others' flaws... they know what idiots they can be... and despite the many tremulous waves of emotions they had to gone through, in the end all of it was worth it... worth all the useless pain and suffering... all the heartache...
It made me wonder... and I pondered this question... and realized I'm not aquainted with this feeling at all...
I've never know what it's like to really truly love another person, fully... I've never giving my heart away to anyone... They have been people I have cared about deeply in the past... but I don't think I could ever say I loved them... Now I wonder why I never did let them have to get so close to me... Was it that I didn't really care for them as much as I thought? Or was it that I was afraid to love?
I don't know... I want a chance to experience this feeling... This feeling of completely, unconditionally loving someone... When that will happen... remains a mystery...
Oh life... Finals... they are so draining... I'm so sleepy...
FRIDAY'S ENGLISH: I couldn't have been more depressed that day TODAY'S MUSIC: I could care less what I wrote, though I was happy the clip was from THE NEVERENDING STORY! *one of my fav. childhood movies* TODAY'S PHILOSOPHY: I felt pretty good after it, so I doubt that I failed it... I'm most likey passing that class with a B average *^^*
FINALS LEFT: PSYCHOLOGY>> Tomorrow... I don't even know how that's going to go POLITICS>> Need to start writing that paper, then in-class test... ghey
Can't wait 'til all this finals business is over... I seriously need a drink...
Current Mood: drained Current Music:Girls, be ambitious by MYV*
"Shall we dance? 1, 2, step...step by step... What are you hiding senorita? The thing I'm hiding is 1, 2, step...step by step... That I'm a "good man", dripping lifeblood 1, 2, step...step by step... If you wish, go ahead and dig your fangs in 1, 2, step...step by step... Down to the very bone marrow
Ah...with the moon shining down, I softly give you the kiss that I promised you on the nape of your pale neck But why? Why does some place in my heart ache this much...?
"It's as though I loved you"
1, 2, step...step by step... Won't you dance with me bonita?, You take my hand 1, 2, step...step by step... And entwine it around your hips, 1, 2, 3 1, 2, step...step by step... In the distance that seems to touch my lips, I suddenly 1, 2, step...step by step... Whisper the words "te amore"
Ah...this flower of passion that has bloomed in my chest is your thorn tightening around my heart And when I think of you, tears of blood flow.
If this love is one that won't come true, we might as well break it off Is wishing that something that we can't do?
How good was it that I wasn't myself? I don't hurt you, even though I can love you... 1, 2, step...step by step At the first sign of the setting sun, we rendezvous 1, 2, step...step by step The morning comes again, and we seperate
Ah...I'm a helpless mosquito that can't even get close to you, who I love. "I want to hold you, but I can't hold you...", that makes me feel like my heart is breaking
Even if my ever changing body dries up Please, before this love becomes a crime Let me hold onto the kiss that didn't get to you, and the love story that didn't bear fruit At least in my dreams, and then wake up
The more I think of you, the closer and farther away we get...like the moon and the sun"
Until Next We Meet...
Current Mood: & yearnful... Current Music:Senor, Senora, Senorita By MYV*
There is only one person in my life right now that truly accepts all of me. I feel that I can share everything with this person... my passions, my interests, my fears... anything. This person has never judged me once, and when we have different opinions (which we rarely do), we agree to diagree and accept the differences. I miss her right now... I hardly see her because our lives are engolfed in the tumultuous waves of work and studying for finals. I need my luver here, to keep my sanity insane! *^0^*
My Twin Soul... Come to Me! <<33
That person makes me smile like this! *^___^*
Current Mood: contemplative Current Music:Blue Planet By Alice Nine
Whatevers Clever... I've decided post up all the nicknames that I've ever had up on LJ, just for kicks...
MY MANY NICKNAMES: ~Rosie>> been called this all my life ~Rose>> if Rosie wasn't being used ~RoJo>> given to me by my dad<3; mix of my first & middle name ~MoJo RoJo>> he added MoJo to RoJo b/c I reminded him of MoJo JoJo one time ~Ro>> when my parents get lazy ~Ojro>> given to me randomly by Kerri ~Roselle-le>> My Spanish Teacher felt the need to say my name the Spainard way ~Rojolie>> given to me by Angelika<3 ~Rojado>> given to me by Suela<3 ~RoZo/Roza>> given to me by my lil' cousin, Cristina<3 ~Rosie Bosie>> given to me by my aunt when I was a wee tot, but is still used ~Rosalinda>> what most spanish-speaking people call me ~RoRo MoMo>> given to me by Tiffany Chuang<3 ~Rosie Posie>> Posie was added by Sherlene<3 ~Bara-Chan>> what my fellow JRock peeps called me at times ~Rozezelle>> a girl from SBU called me this by accident and I sorta liked it ~Rochi-chan>> given to me by my lil' cousin, Christian b/c he can't say Rosie ~Rollie (Pollie Ollie)>> given to me by Jesseh<3 and Tiffany Colon<3
IN TOTAL: 18 NickNames!
And believe me, as I meet more people, the list will probably expand somewhat.
~*Smexay MiYaVi-SaMa*~
OFF TO SLEEP!!! GOODNIGHT... TIFFANY!!! ~*lol*~
Current Mood: sleepy Current Music:"*PaPa MaMa ~ Nozomare NU Baby~" by MiYaVi
Writing just because... Right now, I'm attempting to do my philosophy assignment... yet I have choosen to procrastinate for a little been... and watch MiYaVi vids on Youtube!
WATCH THIS ON WITH ME!!! IT'S MY FAVORITE ONE! (not too sure if LJ can post vids up, but I'm about to find out!)
And here'e a quiz I took, that shows how much I love this MYV* song!
Redundant much? Which Miyavi PV are you??
You are the Ashita, Genki ni Naare PV! You're a pretty interesting individual. You like to spend a lot of time alone, mostly daydreaming. You love warm weather and a spring setting. However, I wouldn't suggest trying to live this way forever. Shopping carts and cardboard boxes don't make very good homes. breathe in a breeze~ Take this quiz!
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